ok courtesy to those who think i died as i have not update my blog recently, unfortunately, NO. I’m still alive (: hehehehe. So, it’s been a good year so far ! lol, just 16 days past the new year only. Have been spending my one week in the hospital ( having attachments ) gah ! Truly, like any other of my past attachments, it has been an amazing experience so far. Bumping into relatives and my ex-piano teacher ! Also last year 08 Dec, i went to australia, had an awesome time there. YES THERE WILL BE PICTURS. z.
YES, so that basically summarizes my whole trip. I missed out the paint ball pictures, but fret not. Soon i’ll upload it. So yeah, till i get the inspiration to write again.
Yup the tough gets going. It really wasn’t a good year for me. In 2007 i made a really stupid mistake and till this day i am paying the price for it. I’m not writing in to get sympathy or anything, i just need to pour out how i feel inside. Probably many people had faced what i faced a year ago. I’m so glad that almost a year have passed, God was so good to me, but i felt i keep disappointing Him. : (
I remember Him telling me i’m going to be a deliverer. But when i look at my current plight, its so hard to believe God’s destiny for my life. When i remember the times He tell me He was going to use my hands, my mind will always fill with doubt. I don’t want my life to end this way. If a word could describe what i feel right now, it would be sorrow. Endure? Tell me how. Really. Encouragement? I got friends in the world who encourage me more than anything. Sometimes jigsaw puzzles don’t fit, i can’t help but find loop holes in my faith. I can’t seem to see the bigger picture. I need help.
No point feeling upset though. I will end with this positive statement made my rocky balboa : It ain’t how hard you get hit, but how hard you get hit and keep moving forward. God have mercy.
i’m blown away by the fact that japanese guitars sound so good. To the point where i can clearly say it rival the American Made Gibsons’. I was skeptical in the beginning, especially the 98Lts model. I thought the feel was like playing with a toy guitar, but all changed when i set my eyes on this 112 relic Lts model. Being served by a pretty lady made things a whole lot better experience too.
Recently we’ve seen how uncertain our future can be, the wavering economy and the panic attacks in wall street. Indeed the one common thing we are facing in our lives is fear. Fear of what? what the future lies, what are we living for? Will our children suffer immensely? Our rice bowls? so many things we can be fearful of.
7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
Indeed this verse has never been real to me until few months ago, out of the three things that God promised which are power, love and sound mind. I never did took a notice on this word called sound mind only recently.
free from error, fallacy, or misapprehension in the mind. Many a times christians we do not realise the battle is in our minds, why are we feeling the way we are feeling? the many times we perceive somethings it stays with us for a long time. Yes maybe it was something we watched earlier in the day, during the night images of what happened earlier on repeats itself. It could be tiring sometimes, how about mental illness? i think most people we look at it at a medical perspective, but somehow i believe it goes beyond the natural.
We should not fall from the grace we have in Christ Jesus, the grace to withstand the wiles of the enemies as stated in ephesians. There is a grace that sustains us in our darkest hour, having said that, without which we will not be able to experience the victory we should have.
So may our lives be aligned correctly to God’s word and that having done that to stand in these last days.
OK, right now as i’m typing. . . . There is a major jam in the network ! the atmosphere’s pretty tense as well, with some of my friends getting their results and for the rest who are constantly refreshing the page to get in. I think i just want to be thankful for the results that i’m getting. I know i do not deserve it but i believe that God never give gifts to those who are able to cook something up by themselves. Yes, i’m feeling nervous for once in my life. Haha.
Today i was supposed to play badminton with my friends, then early this morning CK called me and asked me to hang out with them at vivo ! So…… It was my first time there la, I KNOW I”M SO SWA KOO. zzzzz. yup so i decided to hang out with the CGLs’ cos i hardly had any time for them when i was having attachment. sorry clauds lol.
Yes bus spreee since all of us had bus concession. Hah. Eventually ended up watching “BangKok Dangerous” , seriously, do not watch that show ever. It had such a lame ending, pretty disgusting show as well. Lastly we had our dinner at Astons which was atrocious as ever, lousy customer service ( it got abit better since the last time ) Had a great day with them. ok i think its my last meeting with them for the next 1 month since all 3 of them will be working. Ya life’s good, slack it away. lol.
i’m on my way to freedom right now since i’ve finished my attachment in polyclinic, phew ! IT WAS A BORING 5 DAYS THERE, @()!@(!+)@*!)#!!!
OK i shan’t elaborate much on the attachment, because it really isn’t worth the time. Instead lets talk about the holidays, to all those having polyclinics soon, a big HAHA to you. haha. HAHA.HAHAHAHAHA. I guess i’ll be working, need to pay off some debts :/ I’ll be spending more time on my guitar as well? : / or perhaps i should take this time and really reflect on my life. I guess all of us are wondering why on earth are we on earth for, so many questions yet so little answers. I believe some of us are wondering if there really is a God somewhere in the universe, perhaps for some who are nonchalent religion’s not part of their daily thoughts.
SAD DAY. YES. ARGH. I FEEL LIKE KICKING SOMEBODY NOW. I really miss the patients there, it has been amazing memories though for like 2 weeks. More than me going there to contribute, the patients taught me more than i ever could learn from anyone else. I’m a stone throw to get a bond at imh man.
So we had this small farewell for the patients, gave them lots of sweet stuff. I hope no one collapses from diabetes especially uncle caveman. He has a blood sugar level of 17.4 man the last time i recorded. Basket, and he’s super not scared to die. And i managed to play the guitar for them ! haha, few credits to CCYJ for helping me to sing. Yes we’ve tolerated enough of the patient’s taunting. The last hour was so sad man, it got painful from 8-9pm ! i was like dreading, it’s like the feeling of migrating from singapore to some 4th world country : /
but….. something made my day. Got a call from NYP and my first thought was : oh no, don’t tell me they are calling cos i need to take supp paper. But…….. no. It’s actually got to do with auditioning to be the school’s poster boy! I think i don’t mind repeating another two years in school if i can see my face everyday on the banners man. LOL.
ok jokes aside, tomorrow i’ll be going out with my sheep daryl and his parents. i think i’m going to puke soon. haha.
Lord, You are more precious than silver.
Lord, You are more costly than gold.
Lord, You are more beautiful than diamonds,
And nothing I desire compares to You.
Lord, Your Love is higher than mountains.
Lord, Your Love is deeper than seas.
Lord, Your Love encompasses the nations,
And yet, You live right here inside of me!
Who can weigh the value of knowing You?
Who can judge the worth of who You are?
Who can count the blessings of loving You?
Who can say just how great You are?
Lord, You are more precious than silver.
Lord, You are more costly than gold.
Lord, You are more beautiful than diamonds,
And nothing I desire compares to You.
